fact over fiction.
i’d like to take a break from regular programming to talk about real life. because today, my realitty kicked fantasy’s ass big time.
quite surprising that for a Leo, i really don’t like calling attention to myself or what i do. even tho i know when i deserve a pat in the back, i’m actually a bit awkward when it comes to praises. don’t get me wrong, i know i’m good at a lot of things - but i’ve never really known how to take and react to compliments. except maybe smile haha. and i never ever aggressively go after credit, even those i totally deserve it. no, i’m not pulling a humble-brag here. i am 100% serious. ask my friends and colleagues.
but once in a while, i wonder why i don’t seek out recognition as much as i should. because goddammit it feels hella good. especially when it comes out of nowhere. and from someone i respect and admire. today, i got paid one of the biggest compliments i’ve ever gotten - as in BIG TIME complimenet. it’s so huge, that i’ve never even considered it in my wildest dreams. so huge that i don’t even wanna talk about it - for fear of finding out that it was actually a figment of my imagination haha! this is what surreal feels like. i was caught off-guard so much that it didn’t sink in right away what-the-fuck just happened haha.
now that i’ve had a quiet moment myself, i just want to bask in the joy. fuck me that actually happened! still can’t get over it.
quick thanks to the Man upstairs - i never knew if i’d get here, but here i am. whatever shit i went through, it was worth it.
